Jillian C. York

Jillian C. York is a writer and activist.

Month: September 2009 (page 1 of 3)

On Faux Nostalgia

Screen shot 2009-09-30 at 12.48.15 AMI’ve seen a lot of big mosques.

There’s something different about this one.  There’s a way of photographing it from a specific angle that makes it seem as big as a city (I didn’t do it justice, but this photo does) or as if it lies on the edge of the ocean.

There’s this feeling of nostalgia that sometimes washes over me, but it’s so faint I can’t grasp it; it’s neither rooted in reality nor entirely made up…it feels like a mix of some movie I saw or some song I heard once, a long time ago combined with the feeling of glimpsing into the life of a stranger through some photo album stumbled upon by accident.  I’m surprised there’s no term for it, that feeling of longing for something you’ve never experienced.  I’m sure there is in some language.

ivySyria invoked that feeling in me.  There’s something about the streets of Damascus that feel like they ought to be familiar, as if by one twist of fate I could’ve been born in a city 5,460 miles away. I don’t know why, really; it’s not as if I spent my childhood reading books about the place, like I know so many of my friends who came here from somewhere else spent their childhoods doing.  It just is. I suppose I felt the same way about Prague once upon a time.
I don’t know if I’ll ever understand what it is that causes a specific place to just sing to me, but I wish I did.  I suppose it’s no different than wondering why writing calls to me, or why I’m driven to fight for freedom of expression.  It just is.


Because I arrived so late, or perhaps because I was visiting someone, I didn’t notice much on my first night there.  But the next morning, as I greeted the day, I was blinded by a mid-March sun that made me forget the chilling Boston cold I’d come from.  I wore sandals and smiled at children.  I took absurdly artsy photos in the late-night street and I ate copious amounts of falafel.  I rode in a Tartoussi taxi for more than 2 hours in the rain in a failed attempt to find a hotel.  I never wrote about it.  I wanted to.

The truth is, many of the details of my travels are too precious to me to write about, too intimate.  Others are just to difficult to put into words.  I’ll never pen a memoir of my solo travels around Morocco because I don’t know how to be literary when it comes to crouching in dark Marrakshi alleys while my friends play poker.

Khan Asad Pasha, Damascus, Syria

I wish I could articulate my faux-nostalgia.  Because it isn’t just Syria.  When I was 22 and the Peace Corps gave me a yes to Central Asia, I went out and bought the Lonely Planet edition and read it cover to cover.  It reminded me of the travel guides I’d read on Prague ten years earlier, only a few years after the Velvet Revolution.  Everything had seemed so distant; there was not yet a McDonald’s and an H&M in Wenceslas Square and the British stag parties hadn’t yet descended on the city.  That was Prague in 1994, and this was Central Asia in 2004, and in five years, I don’t know if it will exist at all.

Such is the changing shape of the world, I suppose.  But while the McDonald’ses and H&Ms of the world continue to creep insidiously in, places like these won’t cease to exist.  Which means there is still, somehow, room for remembering those things you’ll never experience.

Anne Applebaum, Child Rape Apologist

A few months ago, I was harshly criticized for my criticism of Anne Applebaum’s so-called journalism.  In Round 1, she made all sorts of absurd statements about Morocco.

Round 2?  Applebaum calls the arrest of Roman Polanski “outrageous,” states that he doesn’t deserve jail time because he has “paid for the crime in many, many ways: In notoriety, in lawyers’ fees, in professional stigma.”  Applebaum then turns rape apologist, blaming Polanski’s actions on his mother’s death at the hands of Nazis in Auschwitz, his father’s suffering in Mauthausen, his own survival of the Krakow ghetto, and his wife’s murder by the Manson Family.  All horrible things of course, but many go through worse and don’t turn to child rape.  For that matter, Charles Manson went through worse, and I don’t see Anne Applebaum apologizing for his actions.  Oh, poor Charles Manson, his own mother sold him to a childless waitress, let’s forgive him for murder, because his life was just so hard.

Seriously, Applebaum, are we doing this?

Religion is Personal…No, REALLY.

An addendum to my last post, in case I wasn’t clear:

This issue, for me, is not about Morocco or Muslim countries, as some of my readers apparently seem to think.  When I say religion is personal, I mean religion is personal, and if your beliefs don’t affect me, then you can do whatever you like.  If that means Mormon polygamy or Christian wearing of a cilice, fine.  I don’t take issue with the personal, consenting decisions of grown adults who choose to participate in religious practice.  It’s when such practices – be they polygamy, hijab, churchgoing, Bible-reading, fasting, or what have you – are forced upon an adult, rather than consented to that I draw the line.  My belief extends to when secularism is forced upon people as well, of course – a consenting person should be able to wear hijab if she likes, to school, or a “burqini” in the public pool.  She should, of course, also be allowed to wear a bikini if she so likes.

So to those who’ve been calling me a hypocrite, do you get it now?

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